I have been battling depression and anxiety since puberty

A friend of mine told me that she had ordered microdosing from Earth Resonance and if I was interested in trying it out together. I was surprised because I had been playing with the idea for a long time to investigate whether it would be something for me. I had seen a number of items about the positive effects of psilocybin on our mental health in recent years.

The past few months have not been easy for anyone and certainly as an entrepreneur in the arts and culture sector, I increasingly felt depressed. After the press conference in October in which the hospitality industry was closed again, something snapped in my head. I could no longer imagine my future, and what I always worked on with such passion now seemed pointless and made me sad. My body and mind indicated that they were completely exhausted by the worries and loneliness of the past few months.

I noticed that I had fallen into a severe depression again for the first time in years.

I knew I had to break the spiral but it was as if my vision was clouded. Taken over by uncertainty, loss, disappointment and fear. 

After 10 days I made an appointment with the GP. I was very worried about my health. I could not see the practice assistant for another 2 months. I have since been able to cancel that appointment.

That week, my girlfriend and I, who was also no longer in control of the situation, started microdosing.

It was a Friday and we both had taken the day off. The weather was nice and we had agreed to have breakfast together and the first dose for dessert. I know I am sensitive to substances and don't have much body mass so I started with the lowest dose of 0.3 grams.

We listened to some music and talked to each other and then decided to go outside for a walk. I noticed that the heavy feeling slowly made way for sunbeams. It was a lovely day, everything seemed to be right and the black blanket that dulled everything had disappeared. That night I slept at a normal time for the first time in a long time. Food tasted good again and taking care of myself was easy again.

The days after I kept holding on to the feeling and I was able to break the spiral of negativity. I was still emotional sometimes and also tired, because I had more rest to relax, but I also felt grateful.

I was able to turn my frustrations back into creativity and realized all the more that following my passion is the right way. I understood the message of the art I had made in the past years better and realized that the setback had made me stronger again and had also been a blessing. Maybe I would not have gotten to know myself, the world and my work so well if it had not happened.

I was extremely surprised by the effectiveness. Since puberty I have always struggled with depression and anxiety. I have been given various medications in my young adult life but I suffered a lot from side effects and it felt like a numbing. As I got older I learned to direct my thoughts better and meditation was always a tool to let me be myself again. This time I couldn't fight it myself. Microdosing really gave me the push I needed.

I stopped after two weeks. I noticed that I was out of the dip and that it was enough for now to pick things up again. I wanted to take a few weeks of rest to let it sink in and then do another cure to really consciously work on breaking through thoughts and patterns that actually no longer fit me. This was more of an emergency stop.

I am convinced that changing pathways in your brain by being aware of your thoughts, the narrative you have about yourself, and your inner dialogue is the solution. Psilocybin accelerates this because you can see things differently, learn that you are always connected to others and nature, puts the ego aside and it helps to really start living from energy.

I am very much looking forward to further dealing with "the old self". The glove no longer fits. I wake up every day grateful that I can make my dream my work and that I have a clear and passionate purpose. That I have something important to say and contribute to a new world. As long as I am busy doing what I am supposed to do I do not have to worry because I have everything I need.

I think it is important to be aware of the effects on your thoughts so that you reflect and increase and control the effect yourself. I hope that more knowledge and research will come into this remedy as a medicine for chronic depression and anxiety disorders. I think it is exactly what humanity needs to get back to itself in a fast-paced world where chronic diseases are becoming a major problem.

Thank you.

Greetings,

Andrea

Ps. I am dyslexic so there may be some serious spelling errors that escape me. Apologies for that. Feel free to adjust it if necessary.

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